Today is the big day. I go in with my new trainer for a weigh-in. Now, the funny thing is that I stand on my scale daily; sometimes 3-4 times a day. After I drink water, after I urinate, after I ... well - uh know -- after every possible thing to determine if it make a difference.
Obsessed? Call it what you want, it's where I am living now. It cracks me up sometimes because I think back to being nearly 350lbs. and NEVER EVER getting on the scale. There was never a wonder or care, or at least not one that I would listen to. Now, the voices seem to SCREAM pay attention to the weight.
According to Dictionary.com (http://www.dictionary.com) weight is defined as:
1. the amount or quantity of heaviness or mass; amount a thing weighs.
2.Physics. the force that gravitation exerts upon a body, equal to the mass of the body times the local acceleration of gravity: commonly taken, in a region of constant gravitational acceleration, as a measure of mass.
3.a system of units for expressing heaviness or mass: avoirdupois weight.
4.a unit of heaviness or mass: The pound is a common weight in English-speaking countries.
5.a body of determinate mass, as of metal, for using on a balance or scale in weighing objects, substances, etc.
What the (**#%$%^*#?!!!
So you get any of that?
There's one definition toward the middle that brought a bit of revelation my way.
a mental or moral burden, as of care, sorrow, or responsibility
importance, moment, consequence, or effective influence
It made me think back to where my weight or if I use this definition, where did my SORROW begin? Where did my burden, care or even better -- at what important moment in my life did I create a series of choices that generated an invitation for WEIGHT?
My hands are shaking as I type this message. My eyes are leaking with tears and my heart... POUNDING!!
I spend my life helping people create breakthrough. I set up systems and create clarity so that they can own their power and fulfill their dreams and yet, here I am feeling like a failure, DROWNING in the SORROW & RESPONSIBLITY of my weight.
Insert pause for snot wiping and tear shedding.
I'm back. One of my mentors, Sandra Steen taught me years ago that a true sign of intelligence is not to know everything but to know where to go and get it. WHEW!!
I believe that often I've stopped myself in life because I didn't have all the answers. I know that I have. I’ve felt alone, saddened or even guilty that in all of my infinite wisdom, I did not have the fix!! Can you identify with that?
One of the primary reasons that I even decided to engage in this journey was to bring you into the conversation with me... negative chatter and all. Today, I chose to write this blog prior to my meeting with Sonya Roemisch, Owner of You-nique Physique Personal Training Studios here in
. (http://www.youniquephysique.net). San Antonio, TX
Sonya was my very 1st weight trainer and she coached me to a remarkable 165lb. weight release. Now, 4 years later we are addressing a 50lb. weight gain and she's helping me to be ok with where I am, acknowledge the places where I lost balance and create a realistic plan and system for life-long success. Will it work?
Only if I choose to say YES!
What I love about sharing with each of you is that you write me with your personal and intimate stories. You are virtual friends but yet you feel real, like we are enjoying a cup of coffee together. Thank you.
Thank you for allowing me a safe-space to be open, vulnerable and real. I am enjoying the healing process INSIDE of community. It really takes a village to advance in any area of our lives.
Another mentor of mine shares this, “Isolation is the fertile ground of insanity!” Yes, if you choose to be alone in your journey, what profits will it yield you other than deranged thinking, flailing results and judgment that keeps you stuck.
I want to hear YOUR story... BLOG NOW!!
PS - I promise to share how the weigh-in goes. Let's see if Sonya yells like Jillian on "Biggest Loser"?! AAAAHHH!!
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